Struggling with an inconsistent walk
Struggling w Walk Not really sure what to do or think, but I'm feeling confused, frustrated, and scared. I've been a "Christian" it seems my whole life. I grew up in a Christian home and I've always believed in God, been baptized multiple times, but I haven't always lived as a true Christian should or been truly saved. But, about, 4 or 5 years ago I began my journey to truly become a woman of God and take my relationship with Him seriously. I just feel like it never has truly "clicked" though. I've tried to read my Bible more, pray more, go to church regularly, gave up secular music, listen to Christian podcasts, etc. But I've been very inconsistent the whole time. What I mean by that is I will pray, read the Word, be obedient, etc. for some days, weeks, or even a month or two. But it ALWAYS seems to come to an end. Then I randomly stop and I'll go days, weeks, months without doing any of it or barely doing it. And then a day c...