Struggling with perfectionism & anxiety
Q: I moved to another State a few months ago, and I have been struggling with my faith in Christ and my sense of identity. I have been really hard on myself about my distance from God, my lack of reading the Bible, praying and interceding for others. I know that there’s grace for my imperfection and shortcomings, but I really don’t like to disappoint God nor take his grace for granted. I try my best to make good decisions, do the right things, and learn from my mistake; but every time I mess up I hate myself even after repenting (especially over small mistakes like cursing). I spoke to a therapist who made me realize I struggle with perfectionism, self-hatred, shame, not setting good boundaries, communication anxiety and a significant fear of not being good enough. Lately I’ve been finding myself completely dissatisfied with my everyday life and getting caught up in not being the person I want to be. It’s really frustrating and it hurts because I want to serve the lord...