Very angry at myself for my husbands death
Q: I can't stop the self hatred and extreme anger I feel towards myself. My husband died a little over a year ago from complications of a stroke. He had a massive stroke on February 19, 2024 and passed away a few weeks later on March 6, 2024 from complications that developed afterwards. We had spent the late afternoon he had his stroke running a couple little errands. Then when we got home that evening, I went and did some work on the computer (I used to sell on Etsy) and then washed my hair. At one point, I went to our bedroom because I wanted to tell my husband something but I saw the door to the master bathroom, that's attached to the master bedroom, was closed. This was maybe an hour after we got back home. I remembered that he had complained of irregularity earlier that day, so instead of interrupting him, I walked out of the bedroom to give him some alone time. I came back maybe a half hr later and still saw the bathroom door closed. This time I had an instinct that m...