Came to Christ but began sinning a lot & am stressed over it
Q: at 24 I finally got right with God. I had finally & easily given up drugs but it only lasted 2 weeks. Sin & Satan came at me hard, and I lost sight of God just a couple months after, and i caved and went back to everything, except I became worse. I became an evil person, someone i don't recognize at all; obviously i'm not evil in like a danger to society way, but i mean living in the most sin i've ever done, cussing more than ever before, i'm irritable, i drink, i've become so angry and cold. I think the absolute worse part of all of this, and this is so so bad, but I don't want to give up the drinking and medical marijuana, i don't want to give up some aspects of my sinful lifestyle- I want to change, but i don't if that makes sense, i guess i'm not willing to move forward, just stuck in this pit of suffering, & hate who i've become, but i can't get out of it. Every day is the same now, i'm stuck in a vicious cycle. I am ...